-[upbeat music playing] -♪ Tell me what your fighting for... ♪
[laughing]
[Stacy] I'm in love with you.
-And I wanna share... -Yeah, baby.
[laughs] And I'm in love with you.
I love you.
-[laughing] -[Lydia] It took a long time to find him.
But he's my person.
[Milton] Love is blind, for sure.
So, the way I looked made you communicate differently.
I like you better without makeup and...
You didn't know what I looked like before!
But now I do!
[Taylor] You're not the person I fell in love with.
I'm done.
No wonder you say that I have a lot of shit! You have nothing!
This is giving me undergrad vibes. This is your dorm.
White walls that have nothing on it.
Why do I keep finding fricking towels on the fricking floor?
-What am I supposed to do with this? -Hang it.
You're such a 24-year-old. You're a baby. You're a kid.
[Stacy] So, you have no dishes.
[Izzy] If you would have met me outside of pod life...
[chuckles] ...like, 'cause I didn't serve you on a glass plate,
is that gonna be an expectation I don't reach,
and you're gonna cut me off for that?
The whole love is blind thing, I get that, but love also needs to eat.
Love needs to have a roof. Sometimes, love wants to fly first class.
[Lydia] Johnie's here!
No, that's Chris. You know, we're official.
The things that you were telling me, I wasn't the only guy you were telling.
-You were my number one. -[chuckles] I wasn't your only number one.
[Uche] One of my dates was a girl
that I have dated in the past.
-It's Lydia. -[dramatic music playing]
Last time we saw each other this year, we slept together.
You guys have this long extensive history.
It felt like she was keeping tabs on you and I.
How are so many people
texting me saying that you're stalking their profiles,
and they feel uncomfortable?
And then you took a picture of my house, and you sent it to me.
-And you said, "I see you." -I ain't gonna deal with this shit!
This is the last time you will see my fucking face!
[sighs heavily]
[Lydia] If me and Milton can get through this...
[Uche] Let's walk away from her.
[Lydia] ...we can get through anything.
[intense music playing]
[mellow music playing]
[Uche] I just felt the need to be honest because I came in the pods,
and, you know, I didn't tell you a single thing
about Lydia at all.
-Right? -100%.
I didn't say anything about our relationship,
and she was on the other side, like, getting in Aaliyah's head.
Like, "Oh, this is what Uche looks like."
"This is what car he drives."
"This is what I bought for his dog. This and this and that."
So, it told me that she was still, like, upset
about how things, like, ended between us.
And what I was doing is trying to be the nice guy
and be like, "Okay, it's me not you."
I can read you the last text message I ever sent her.
I said, "You're an amazing person. Don't change for anybody."
"I just think that it's not gonna work out between us,"
but that wasn't honest.
Right? There were some things that happened in our relationship.
I felt like early on, she was a little bit dishonest with me
and just the way that she just, like,
boldly lied to my face with no remorse,
I'm like, "I don't think I can trust this person."
[Lydia] Hey, babe.
[Uche] Can you let me have a conversation with my friend?
-[Milton] Hey. Can I get five minutes? -Come with me. Quickly.
-[Lydia] No. -[Uche] Let him have five minutes.
Don't let her control you.
You're gonna let her come in between your friends?
-[Lydia] Milton. -[Milton] Hey.
-Hey. Trust me. Trust me. -No. Milton. Milton. Milton. Milton.
-Gimme one second. One second. -Milton. Milton.
[Uche] I think if Milton says yes at the altar,
that would be one of the biggest mistakes that he's ever made.
-["Victim" by Cami Galles playing] -♪ Oh, you like to play the victim ♪
♪ When you're the one who stabbed me ♪
♪ You like to play the victim ♪
♪ Yeah, you pushed me ♪
♪ Over the edge ♪
-[Uche] So, that went well. -[Maris] What the hell did you just do?
Oh, dude, I heard. Are you good?
I'm good, but it's like... So here's the thing.
I'm like, "You put us in this situation."
Because I found out that she knew I was being cast
for the experiment.
[gasps]
She wanted us to be on this experiment together.
[Stacy] Is your face okay?
-She... She... She blocked... -[Johnie] I mean...
-She blocked my Instagram profile. -[Stacy] Is your face okay?
-[Johnie] I'm surprised. -Stacy, keep it cool.
-[Stacy] At what? -I'm allowed to be surprised.
Can I finish?
-[Stacy] Yeah, but you're looking at me. -I was looking at them.
[Uche] She came in the first day. I don't know which of you girls she told.
She was saying, "Oh, I feel like I'm gonna see somebody from my past."
Either she found out I was gonna be there,
or she has supernatural powers that allow her to see into the future.
What would have been the goal? Did you expect us to end up together?
Or are you trying to sabotage, like, my chance at being with somebody?
'Cause if that was her goal, she did it.
She ruined anything that me and Aaliyah could have had.
I kind of want some accountability for what she did to Aaliyah.
Like, to follow somebody around
and tell them things about me, like...
That's not how that happened on our side.
[Maris] That's not how it happened. You're assuming.
But I don't think that Lydia wanted me to fall in love
and to have a genuine shot...
-I have to have Lydia's back on this... -[Miriam] Yeah.
...because when Aaliyah was breaking down when she told you about her infidelity
and you were kind of, like, done about it, Lydia sat there comforting her friend
that is dating her ex.
But what did she do after?
But that emotion whenever she was comforting Aaliyah was not fake.
But then after she found out about it...
Lydia and Aaliyah came to us together, holding hands, crying together...
That was before she found out that we all knew everything though, right?
-[Miriam] No! She... -[Uche] That would be... Miriam.
-Miriam, stop, stop. Let Stacy continue. -Don't tell me to stop.
-Excuse me. Don't tell her to stop. -[Uche] I wanna hear what Stacy's saying.
Don't tell me to stop.
You are not going to tell me when to talk.
-[Uche] All right. This is done. -Keep your toxic masculinity to yourself.
-[Uche] I'mma grab another drink. -Back off!
Do you wanna talk? 'Cause I wanna hear your perspective, Stacy.
-[mocking] You can talk here. -Stacy, can I talk to you?
-I don't wanna hear her... -[Miriam arguing]
-Miriam's bitter. -[Miriam] You don't wanna hear...
Bitter? You are so self-absorbed!
I'm trying to have a conversation about Lydia.
-If y'all want to talk about that... -[Miriam] Doesn't matter where you go.
-Yeah, leave! Don't call me bitter. -[Uche] I'm gonna grab a drink.
-[Uche] You are bitter. Bitter and fake. -You're so pathetic.
Saying all the nonsense you said, but you can't say it to my face!
Do you live in Saudi Arabia or do you live in Houston?
-Do you have a job? Do you have a not job? -I have a fucking job!
[Miriam] Wait, wait, wait! Can you believe this guy?
Do you have a business? Do you not have a business?
Do you have a boyfriend? Do you not have a boyfriend?
-I'm outta here. -Wait! No, no, no!
-[Uche] You're here for the cameras! -No, no, no, hold on!
-I'm here for the cameras? -Only thing you're here for.
-You're so fake. -Come back! Let me answer!
Yes, I work in Saudi Arabia!
Yes, I have a fucking degree from Johns Hopkins University!
You can look that up.
You wanna talk about who's here for the cameras?
I'm not Lydia or Aaliyah. You're not gonna make me cry.
I'll read you for the filth you are! Loser!
[dramatic music playing]
Miriam, take a breath.
He's not worth your time.
["Don't Play With Fire" by Jake Warren playing]
You should have seen this piss I took. It took about 20 minutes.
Asking me if I work in Saudi Arabia, are you kidding me?
[Milton] Hey, ma'am.
Please take care of Lydia, please.
-Thank you. -Yeah, we got her.
[dramatic note plays]
[Stacy] Proud of you for speaking your mind.
He's walking away looking at his phone. He doesn't care.
He has nothing to say. He's a freaking coward.
If he wants to portray me as crazy, go ahead.
[Stacy] That's the definition of a narcissist.
You're basically telling me, like, I'm a liar,
and I'm like, he was a liar.
He slept with someone while he was dating me.
He's not putting that out there.
Because, honestly, I know who I am, and I know who he is.
And he is garbage.
No one. No one should be able to disrespect me the way that he just did.
-[Miriam] Yeah. -No one.
I am thriving, and I am happy, and I'm in love with my fiancé.
-Yes. -[Lydia] And that's bothering him.
He is not worth it.
Who wants more drinks? What do y'all want?
[Stacy] I just need to, like, get off this couch.
So, I'm confused.
I know the situation. I know you have good intentions.
Uche is, like, very convincing though.
So, Uche just said that you knew he was gonna be in there.
[tense music playing]
-[Lydia] How? -[Johnie] He said you knew.
-[Lydia] How? -And that's when I was like, "What?"
-How? -[Maris] Girl, he just said that.
He said that you were basically stalking him.
Oh, yeah, he showed me screenshots about, like, friends saying
that I was looking at his stories or something like that.
Do you not look at people's stories that you've been fucking? I do.
[Johnie] Yeah.
[Maris laughs] I'm sorry. I wanna know what you're doing without me.
He was like, "Oh, you're crazy."
I don't know. I don't know. I honestly don't care.
It's so much information from both sides,
and I've heard it from you, and Aaliyah, and Uche.
I don't know. It's just so much.
Milton is mature enough to understand, like, don't listen, like,
to shit he's saying, right? Look at them.
[Johnie] Now Milton and Uche are together?
["There Will Be Fire" by Boris Nonte & Vanessa Campagna playing]
♪ No, there's not another side ♪
I'm trying to be honest tonight, and she blows up at me.
Last year, I started getting messages from girls on Instagram saying,
"Hey, I've been seeing her view my stories for weeks at a time."
"She doesn't follow me. You're the only person she follows."
"I thought I should let you know."
And then I'm showing her the screenshots, right?
-[Milton] Mmm-hmm. -I don't mean to show you it,
but just so you know that I'm not trying to bullshit you and make up lies.
Trust me, I... I...
-So, okay. You don't need it. Okay. -Not doubting any of it.
So, I don't want this to affect, like, your relationship with her at all,
but I think I would be a bad friend if I didn't come to you
and tell you that Lydia planned to be here with me,
so that we could end up here together.
And she came in the first day telling all the girls,
"I feel like I'm gonna meet somebody from my past here,
and if I do, it's fate."
It's not fate. She fucking planned for us to both be here
because she couldn't let me go.
[tense music playing]
[Milton] Mmm.
-[Uche] It's a lot. I know. -So...
My mom always told me, like, your perception is, like, your reality.
You and her have very different perceptions.
You guys are both grown.
You guys kind of both handle it.
But you don't think that somebody's past determines their behavior in the future?
Like, what if you wanted to talk to Lydia about something very important,
then she stormed off on you?
Do you think that's, like, a healthy way to, like, communicate?
No, but I understand there's nuances, and things are situational.
Like, you know, this isn't Pythagorean theorem going on.
Like, this is, like, multidimensional calculus.
You're in an X direction.
She's in a Y direction, and I'm the Z direction.
-[Uche] Yeah. -Like, I'm not even adjacent.
-[Uche] Yeah. -Just, like, on a different parallel.
-It's all perception. -Yeah.
How have y'all's communication been generally?
-Actually really good. -Good.
I've really wanted to just, like, find someone genuine,
and I feel like I found it.
You feel like that's something that's like a lifelong thing between the two of you?
You don't feel like you're, like, in a honeymoon phase,
where things are, like, great for right now,
but there could potentially be something
that goes wrong in the future?
I kind of always live my life in the honeymoon phase.
I don't let anything ever give me a negative perspective.
That's good.
And regardless if, like, you and her see eye-to-eye, like,
we're all on different dimensional planes.
It just is what it is.
Milton, I...
You have, like, two or three weeks left in your engagement,
and I honestly wish you the best of luck.
And, if you know in the pods, how many negative things did I say about her?
Nothing. I said she's amazing person.
I was more worried about you...
[chuckles] ...breaking her heart, wasn't I?
I went into the pods asking you not to hurt her,
and now I'm telling you to be careful that she doesn't do that to you.
That's fair.
Don't let her come in between our friendship either.
-Uche, best of luck to you, brother. -You too, man.
-[Milton] I'll text you in the group chat. -See you later.
["I Didn't Come Here to Make Friends" by ELKAE playing]
[Chris] I don't appreciate you saying to her
that I think she's a bad person, 'cause I think she's amazing.
[Izzy] I never told her that you said she was a bad person.
Red flag right there.
If I would have stuck with Johnie,
knowing what she told you and she told me, and if I found that out afterwards,
I would have been, "What the fuck?"
It was, "What the fuck?" And then she cleared it up.
I'm happy for you guys.
I want nothing but the best for you and her.
I don't hate the girl. Obviously, I cut her off for a reason.
I just didn't think it was cool to, like, do that to us.
And so, I said it. I addressed it.
-Okay. -[Izzy] And that was that.
Well, I think she's amazing.
I just don't want you or anybody feeding her information that's not true.
-So, if you didn't, then that's fine. -[Izzy] Yeah, I did not.
It was more, "How are you gonna tell me that you're in love with me,
ask me to be your boyfriend four times,
tell me you're in love with me four times,
and then sit here and tell me, like, 'I'm so glad this didn't work out.'"
-I would never... -She told you she loved you in there?
Four times. I counted it.
-She was in love with me. -I didn't know that.
And I never said it back.
And I'm not trying to persuade you on anything. That's not my intent here.
I hope you guys work out, honestly.
I'm calling her out on her shit because you remind me of me.
We have good hearts.
People can take advantage of us very easily.
-[Stacy] Like who? -Johnie.
-[Stacy] Oh, God. -[Chris] No.
And so that's why I called her out on her shit,
because you were a good friend to me.
She's telling us all the same shit. I promise you, I never said...
But to me, like, if I was trying to say, like...
I didn't know I was walking into this.
I thought I was getting out of the drama, but I just walked into it.
Stacy can give you the girls' perspective side.
But for me, like, if I was trying to get with you, I would...
-...go to Izzy. -[Johnie] Is this good?
'Cause I just see hands waving.
We're trying to understand the story. You know what I'm saying?
No, they're trying to convince you of a story
that probably didn't happen. I don't know why y'all are...
[Stacy] He asked. So ask him.
[tense music playing]
Oh, my God.
-[Chris] No, that's... -You know this is all lies, right?
They're both...
-Their stories are conflicting. -Neither of y'all were there.
[Stacy] We were there in the pods to know you're full of shit.
So it coincides with the real world that you're still full of shit.
[Chris] Y'all's stories are conflicting.
Yeah, it's surprising to get a hold of your real personality.
[tense music continues]
I hope you guys are very happy together. I really do.
[Johnie] We are happy together. Are y'all happy together?
-'Cause why are y'all ganging up on... -[Izzy] I'm great.
Then y'all go for it. Why are y'all ganging up on my boyfriend?
[Stacy] We're not ganging up at all!
-They're friends. -[Izzy] Yeah.
-I think you're deceitful. -How?
[Johnie] Every conversation we had about Izzy,
you didn't tell me that he was one of your strongest connections.
-You never told me it was Izzy. -Oh, my God, everyone knew it was Izzy.
-No, and I didn't say anything... -You didn't say anything because why?
Johnie, what do I owe to you? I don't trust you.
Honestly, if you knew it was me,
you would have acted completely different with him.
[Johnie] No, I wouldn't have.
'Cause our relationship has nothing to do with you.
Thank God.
No, you acted differently with him based off of me and his relationship,
which is why I think you're deceitful.
[Stacy] I have always been the same person,
and I shed tears for you knowing that you were gonna get rejected.
-Okay. -[Stacy] I had empathy for you.
And that's why I'm so fired up, is because you're a shit person.
And I feel bad for shedding a damn tear for you.
[intense music playing]
Okay, go ask anyone out there if I'm a shitty person.
Oh, I've already done that, and I'm very confident in my opinion.
-Okay. -Which is why I don't look at you.
-[Johnie] That's not true. -[Chris] She's not a shitty person.
Well, why didn't you propose?
-Because there was a lot going on. -I went from a breakup to back to him.
We were never together. No, no, no, don't call it a breakup.
Oh, my God, that's not what I'm saying! Okay, what do you want me to call it?
You asked me to be your boyfriend. Never said yes.
No, I didn't!
You told me you were falling in love, I never told you anything back.
-Don't call it a breakup. -I never asked him to be my boyfriend.
I asked Stacy to be my girlfriend, if you wanna get technical.
I never asked him to be my boyfriend. That never happened.
-We can roll the tapes, honey. -No, I didn't.
The proof's in the pudding. No one has ill intentions.
It's just calling shit for shit.
-We're just calling you out. -[Stacy] I'm a straight shooter.
-That's all I stand for. -[Izzy] I got your back any time.
This is not between us. We're good.
I'm looking out for you 'cause you're an amazing guy.
-We're good. All four of us are not good. -[Izzy] We're good.
That is all lies.
Okay, so I'm not listening to it. You know me.
I don't care. Whatever is between us is between us.
[intense music playing]
[Miriam] What happened?
There were so much lies, but I can't sit here and listen to all your bullshit
that everyone's choking on.
-What lies? What bullshit? -Johnie and the Chris/Izzy shit.
She told opposite things to me and Chris, and she's sketchy, sketchy, sketchy.
[sobbing] I get in my head a lot because I care what people think.
I made mistakes, but I really tried to be good to people. [sniffles]
[Stacy] I think she's boring. She's fake, two-faced.
I can't get far enough away from her.
Just stay away from me.
Listen, that's my friend. Y'all are all my friends.
However, I'm telling y'all, y'all are all seeing it from a different perspective.
Mar, this isn't the time to understand each other.
We're not gonna be friends.
I'm never gonna look her way, and I hope she doesn't look mine.
That's the end of it.
[dramatic note plays]
["Kill Switch" by Liam Geddes playing]
[stifling tears]
♪ Oh! I'm gonna end this one ♪
♪ Going on war, cold to the core ♪
♪ Fire inside, you're loving it ♪
♪ Oh! I'll be the kill switch ♪
♪ Kill switch ♪
[song fades]
[Lydia] Dude, he was, like, showing screenshots of all the people...
"Oh, Lydia was looking at my story."
-[Milton] Okay. Listen, listen, listen. -Dude, we have friends in common.
He's being a douchebag.
[Milton] I've been a douchebag once before too.
-It's okay. -[Lydia] Are you gonna defend me?
[Milton] You don't think I would? I would always defend you.
-It's so minute. -[Lydia] What?
-[Milton] It's minute. -What is that?
[Milton] Minute? Like, not important. Who gives a fuck?
What'd I tell you about getting so emotional?
-[Lydia] I'm not getting emotional. -Act more like Milton.
-You're too strong. You're too big. -[sniffles]
[Milton] Look at you, you're a fucking grown-ass woman. You're a badass.
You have a great-ass job. You make great-ass money.
You're independent as fuck.
Fuck everybody else.
Who cares? We'll make it through.
Now, we have a dinner to go to.
I love you.
[Milton] All right.
["Break My Own Heart" by Haroula Rose playing]
♪ Least we handled it with grace ♪
♪ I break my own heart every time ♪
-[Izzy] So. -Hello-hello!
-[Izzy] That went so... -Let me go! Ow, ow, ow! Ow!
[Izzy] So I'm really annoyed that Chris thought...
[Stacy] You're annoyed?
I'm annoyed that Chris thought that I was...
Stop!
...going against him.
I think it's because Johnie's got in his head.
-And I think before this she knew... -[Izzy] She's super manipulative.
Look, this is Monday flower day. We always bring Stacy flowers.
-I didn't know Monday was flower day. -[Izzy] Mondays are flower days.
Always start the week off right, right?
Yeah, you always get flowers every week. This is a thing for me. Every week.
[Stacy comically] I like that.
[Izzy] Chris deserves a good woman,
and I don't think that he should be with Johnie.
She's literally so sketchy.
Like, I don't even wanna have this conversation talking about her.
It's such a waste of breath. Like, I don't wanna talk about it.
I was just trying to look out for Chris, and I think she's, like...
Why do you care?
'Cause he's a good guy!
-I got to know him... -[Stacy] He doesn't like you.
No, we're fine.
It didn't seem like you were fine when I walked in there.
I was just trying to look out and tell him...
But why?
You're trying to look out for him with Johnie?
-I was just trying... -Why?
This has nothing to do with Johnie.
-It was just about... -That's who he's dating!
It was more so about him.
He clearly doesn't want you to look out for him.
He clearly wanted to defend her.
-I mean, yeah. -[Stacy] And he was coming after you.
So put on your best running shoes and run, because they're crazy.
It'll never work out, and if it does, great.
I was torn at a point where I was just like, "I've got to know Chris."
-He's not a wounded dog. He's a man. -I... I know.
Let me talk.
-I am. -[Izzy] I felt...
And I'm giving my opinion while you talk.
I think that you're not really acknowledging the sensitive point to me
that it's Johnie.
And that it's your person.
It bothers me.
I don't care about Johnie.
-And you know that. -I know you don't.
I saw you railing into her ass,
and I got so turned on.
[chuckles] I appreciate our relationship so much.
I appreciate you so much.
I'm so glad that I trusted, like, my heart and my gut
to be with you.
Looking at the entire night, I am so glad. [chuckles]
I'm sure you are.
Looking at that and then looking at me, I'm sure you're glad.
-And for me, I'm getting more furious. -No, it's not even that.
That I'm in the same boat as that.
The appreciation you're feeling for me now,
I don't want it to be elicited from looking at crazy.
I want it to be just because.
I feel like the times that you're most passionate and like,
"I'm so glad to be around you, and I love you so much,"
are the times like this,
where it gets hot and then conflict comes up,
and it's almost like you've run away from it to come to me as shelter.
Where it's like, "I'm so glad I have you."
I'm just telling you what it feels like to me.
I want it to feel like that when you come in from work
in this door right here.
Have you not felt that way from me?
I think you come in, and you're... like, you wanna give me a hug and stuff,
but, like, in these instances you're like,
"Thank God I chose you instead of that."
Like, I want the angst of, like,
you're afraid to lose me all the time.
[Izzy] Mmm.
[softy] Okay.
I'm just saying there's other ways that you could show me
you're appreciative of me and not compare it to your past relationships
that we just encountered.
Johnie's not a previous relationship. Johnie was a pod chick.
Well, she was over me for quite some time, so I kind of
don't feel so good about that.
[softly] Okay.
That makes me feel not good.
Like, I'm a pod chick. You met me in a pod.
You're my fiancé.
-You're not just any girl. -[tense music playing]
I feel like it's more talk than it is showing me.
-I do... -You're talking about me and my actions?
-[Stacy] Mmm-hmm. -[scoffs]
-Are you serious? -Yeah.
-Like... -Elaborate, please.
So, like, in the pods, you're like, "In ideal life, this is how it would go."
"We'd come home from work, and we'd lay down," and, like...
"I do this." Like, "I'll cook for you,
and I'll rub your feet, and this, this, and that."
And it's like, sometimes I don't really feel like that's how it is.
Sometimes I feel like that's me doing it.
Okay, so, elaborate more.
-You cooked for me twice. -[Stacy] Mmm-hmm.
Put aside that. What have I not done for you?
Cook for me.
Again, put cooking aside. What have I not done for you?
-Like until... -Do you hear what you're saying now?
I do. I'm telling you.
That's how I'm trying to communicate with you.
-I'm listening. -No, you're being defensive.
No, I'm listening, 'cause I'm in shock, 'cause this is new to me, 'cause...
We've had so many times on our own,
and this is now the first time that I'm hearing this.
Well, when you come home, like, what do you do for me?
That's a question for you to answer.
No, I'm asking you what you do for me when I come home.
I'm barely home.
I'm up earlier than you. Sometimes, I get home later than you.
When I'm here, I've cleaned.
Aside of cooking, trying to be the best support system as your fiancé.
To be patient and kind and understanding.
To try my best to adapt to you.
[chuckles] Also, try to juggle my own emotions.
[dark music playing]
Because I don't know if one day you're gonna tell me yes
and one day you're gonna tell me no.
Why do you think that is?
Why are you looking at me like that?
I don't know.
Sometimes you make me feel like what I do is not good enough all the time.
You make me feel like I'm not enough for you.
[dramatic note plays]
["The Road" by Lydia Ainsworth playing]
♪ The dust is getting thicker... ♪
-[door opens and closes] -♪ The light is getting dimmer ♪
♪ Did I have to let this go? ♪
[Stacy] I want all the stuff he promised me.
Where it's like, "I'm that romantic guy, the rose petals,
the bath when you get back, the candlelight, the home-cooked meal."
And it feels like I'm trying to express myself, and he's not having it,
'cause he's either afraid of what I'm gonna say,
or he doesn't wanna hear it.
But I've been in here
with the same time constraints that he's had.
I've cooked. I've cleaned. So I'm really sick of the excuses.
I have no question on me. I'm good.
I've given.
I have given.
♪ On and on and on once more ♪
-[Izzy sniffles] -What is going on?
-[Izzy] Can you please just get away? -Me?
What do you want? Do you want me to get away?
[Izzy] I don't need anything. I'm good.
-[sniffling and stifling tears] -Why are you crying?
[Izzy exhales]
[Izzy] I don't feel like I'm good enough for you.
I don't feel like anything I do...
I feel like I could be the best person I could be,
and I feel like I don't ever meet your expectation.
[sobbing]
I do my best to be patient and kind.
[sniffles] And there's always something, and I'm over it.
[sniffles] I'm over it.
I feel like there's always something, and I just can't do it anymore.
[sniffles]
And I don't wanna talk about it right now. I don't wanna talk about it.
♪ 'Cause I know it hurt to see me go ♪
♪ There's no way That you'll take me back ♪
♪ Open sky with no landmark ♪
♪ Making progress And yet nothing's changing ♪
♪ As two mirrors guide the form ♪
♪ Let's go on and on and on once more ♪
♪ When there's nothing left to break ♪
♪ In a gaze within another gaze ♪
-[Lydia] Tonight was rough. -[Milton] No, it wasn't.
[Lydia] Well, it was for me.
I cannot dwell on the fact that my past acted the way
that he acted with me tonight.
[sighs] I cannot deal with his BS.
I told him that all three of us are in different parallels.
This is calculus.
Now, he may not understand that because he's no engineer.
-Or no STEM major. -[laughs]
My perception is something different than his perception and your perception,
and we'll continue to live our lives that way.
What is your perception?
My perception is the bond and the relationship that me and you have.
And that's that.
You're right.
-I think, personally... -Mmm-hmm.
I'm a little bit more level-headed than you are.
I think I'm just, like, less emotional,
and I'm not saying that in a negative connotation at all.
Yeah, I agree. You're less emotional than I am,
but I don't want you to discredit or un-validate my feelings.
And it's not because I care about him.
But I'm not gonna stay there and listen to his BS,
because it's not true.
-It's just like, dude, like... -But why give anybody that privilege?
You're right. I'm not saying that you're not right.
-I should not let it affect me. -Showing emotions...
-[Lydia] Yeah, but it's... -...for me, in my life, is a privilege.
Believe me, Milton.
I know how you handle these situations because I know you.
And I am mesmerized
by how you can handle things and don't give a fucking fuck.
I'm just asking you to try to handle them a little bit more similar.
I get that I should not let anybody control my emotions,
but it was not because of him that I got upset.
It was because of my own self.
I should have known better.
-["Praying" by Full Circle playing] -♪ Passion fades, uncertain stage ♪
♪ Of your whole life... ♪
I came to this experience because I wanted to find love,
because I wanted to find my husband.
And you know what? I did!
And at the end of the day, that's all that matters.
Because I know
that you love me and I love you.
Right?
100%.
I love you.
["I Choose You" by Forest Blakk playing]
♪ My love is a sure thing That you'll never lose ♪
♪ No matter what this life Puts us through... ♪
[Lydia] I love you.
♪ I choose you, I do, I do, I do... ♪
[Lydia] I cannot wait to marry you.
Thank you for everything.
Thank you for being
there for me.
-You think I'm the most mature guy still? -The what?
-You think I'm the most mature guy? -100%.
[Milton] Yeah, I knew it.
♪ Just fall in my arms ♪
♪ My love is a sure thing That you'll never lose ♪
♪ No matter what this life Puts us through ♪
♪ I choose you, I do, I do, I do ♪
♪ I choose you, I do, I do ♪
♪ I do, I choose you ♪
Okay, kids, we're gonna start with a warm-up facing the front of the room.
-[upbeat music playing] -We're gonna lift the hips for a pike up.
So hips go up towards the ceiling.
Press it out. When in doubt, press it out or pull out.
But we're not doing that today. [laughs]
Four counts up with the hips.
♪ 'Cause I made it to the top And I go boom, boom, boom... ♪
Hold at that lowest point. Do not freaking move!
Yeah!
Perfect.
♪ Uh-huh, I wanna hear... ♪
Squeeze up and in under the hip. Press it back.
We're gonna finish with one more plank.
One yellow spring in five,
four, three,
two and one.
Whoo!
-[sighs] -[student exclaims]
I know! You know, that means we're doing it right.
-Amazing work, guys. -[sighs]
Me and Stacy didn't end too well last night.
And we haven't really talked much today,
so, you know, I'm still feeling a bit hurt about the situation.
Also, not knowing where she's at.
I didn't really feel like I would...
We were, like, yelling at the top of our lungs.
Or you know, I felt like it was just, like, a conversation
that came out from left field.
-Oh, hello. -[Izzy] Hello-hello.
Let's talk about you and me?
It was confusing, and it was just, like, very...
It hit the heart. Um, it sucked.
I love her and I'm gonna keep fighting. Like, we'll figure out a solution.
-[sighs] -How was your day?
-[sighs] It was... a day. -Mmm-hmm.
How do you feel? Where are you at?
[Stacy] I'm just, like...
cloudy.
[Izzy] Mmm-hmm.
Honestly, the whole scenario just caught me completely off guard.
I think my reaction was because...
[clears throat]
[clicks tongue] ...it hurt really bad.
Um...
[sighs heavily] I feel like...
I know I'm not perfect.
Um, I'm still learning you.
-Um... -[heavy music playing]
I feel like I put...
my best efforts in every day with you.
Um...
And I felt really unappreciated.
[heavy music continues]
I think that...
the things that I do, I really want reciprocated.
Like, I do take time out of the day to...
[clears throat]
...do something for you, have something set up for you,
whatever it is.
Like, I think about those things even when I'm tired, and...
I'm like, "It would be nice if he did that for me,
and I didn't have to worry about doing this, like, dinner or whatever."
And, like, trust me, I do like to cook, and I would do it for you...
[Stacy] I know, but, like, my thing is we don't have a lot of time,
and so these are the things that I wanna make sure like,
"Is he like that? Is he the guy that he tells me he is?"
-[Izzy] Mmm-hmm. -I'm trying to figure that out.
I understand. Like, I hear you out. I get what you want. I get what you need.
But, like, the things that I have done is just, like, going unrecognized.
Because you're just so focused on, like, what I'm not doing for you.
So it's like, yeah, I know, I may be lacking on some parts...
that I can easily fix.
But then last night with all that, like,
I just, like, I felt like all my work just meant nothing.
-[Stacy] I mean, I don't feel that way. -Right.
I'm not saying that that's not how you felt.
I do appreciate the things that you do for me.
-And I do recognize them. -[gentle music playing]
I'm doing my best. Like, today, I was still upset and hurt.
And I still managed to suck it up and let you know that I'm still here.
So...
I love you.
I just need a little more of that from you.
I love and chose you
because of how you've been in the last ten-fifteen minutes.
You're so calming, and reassuring, and...
open that there's nothing that I couldn't say to you.
Good and bad, but it's more the good.
Like, I don't talk to guys how I talk to you.
I'm not open like that.
And I chose you, 'cause you bring that out in me.
And I didn't even know that was there.
I hate that I made you sad.
-[Izzy] Hmm? -I hate that I made you sad.
[Izzy] It's cool. It happens.
-[Stacy] "It's cool." -[chuckles]
I honestly didn't wanna get that way, but I just kind of lost it, so...
But we're good.
-[sighs] I guess I lurv you. -Yeah.
-["Give Me Mercy" by Isaac Tyler playing] -♪ I may falter most of the time... ♪
-[sighs] -You okay?
Yeah, I'm good. Are you?
♪ I proved you right... ♪
You know, I'm proud of myself to, like, be able to tell her,
"I'm still here for you."
I'm glad that I can actually voice my feelings and actually feel heard.
Uh, I got you something.
I'm just trying to give her everything that she's never had.
I feel like we can overcome anything that comes our way.
And right now, looking at the bigger picture, like...
You know, it's only gonna get better from here.
I had a scare today,
but there's still no doubt in my mind that I would tell her yes at the altar.
[Stacy] Oh, my God, Izzy.
I got a coupon.
"Izzy cooks you dinner while you sit and look sexy."
-[Izzy laughs] Horrible writing. -What is...
Oh, my God. Oh, there's writing on it.
"This is a shitty situation, but just like in Mexico,
I'm here to love you and fight for you."
[chuckles] That's the most romantic thing anyone's ever gotten me!
-There's more? -Yes.
I can't believe you did this. Now I feel really bad.
-Oh, my God, I love this photo. -[chuckles]
It's very sweet. I was not expecting that at all.
It reassures me that he does care. That he can fight.
That he can stick it out, and then give even more on top of all of that.
I love and respect the fact that he is the one that
is the rock, and he wouldn't walk away or shy away from responsibility.
He'd dive right in, and all of that is like...
Thank you.
I love you.
-Thank you. -Yeah.
♪ Where are you? 'Cause I need you now ♪
♪ And, oh, please have mercy ♪
♪ Let me be found ♪
♪ I may falter most of the time ♪
♪ You said that's what happened I proved you right ♪
Milton is burning the house.
["Everything I Want" by Jonathan Dujoncquoy & Valery Pellegrini playing]
It smells like burnt plastic.
[Milton] Look how good this looks.
[Lydia] That's not gonna look good.
How that looks good?
You didn't even take the shit out of...
You're not supposed to eat the outer stuff of the sausage.
["Everything I Want" continues playing]
-[Milton] You want some? -No!
Thank you.
Tastes good to me.
Ugh.
♪ There's no mountain I can't climb For you to be mine ♪
[Izzy] I need you on your best behavior. No jumping in the face.
No biting chins.
Just be on your best behavior like you always are.
["Put 'Em Up" by The EverLove playing]
♪ So put 'em up ♪
♪ Put 'em up Put 'em up, it's going down ♪
[knock on door]
[knocking continues]
-[Reyna] Anybody home? Oh, my God! -[laughing]
-[Izzy] How are you? I miss you. -Oh, baby! I miss you, mijo.
-[Izzy] I miss you too. -How are you?
-[Izzy] I'm good. Tux, come on. -Oh, look at this!
-[Izzy] This is Tux. -Oh, my gosh!
-[Izzy] Come here. -[gasps] Oh!
-[Reyna] What a cutie! -This is Stacy's dog, Tux.
[Reyna] You're so beautiful. Thank you for the welcoming. Oh, my gosh.
[Izzy] Stacy is meeting my mom today.
Most important person in my life.
He likes to chew. That's okay, it's an old purse.
-Here, I'll take your purse. -Don't worry.
-[exhales] -Well, what a nice place here!
[Izzy] Growing up, my stepdad was around,
but now they're not together, so it's just me and her.
-[Reyna] Oh, my goodness. -It's been good.
Usually, you're bringing home, "Hey, Mom, this is my new girlfriend."
[chuckles] But it's like, "Hey, Mom. This is my new fiancé."
I definitely want my mom, you know, to feel comfortable, get her approval.
Um, but also thinking of Stacy,
and I want, you know, Stacy to have a good relationship with my mom.
Stacy should be coming home soon. Do you want anything to drink?
No, but I'm fine. I'm just, uh...
I'll be very, very honest with you, but it's just...
-I'm in shock. [laughs] -Yeah.
Since the first day I hold you in my arms,
seeing you how you been growing up all of these years,
and all of a sudden, you know, I get this news.
I didn't expect it either.
I'm speechless, but I'm excited at the same time too.
I just wanna make sure... And this is me talking as your mother.
I'm coming from a different generation, you know.
[chuckles] The way we meet people wasn't this way.
We learned from my mom and my dad, you know, your grandparents,
that marriage is...
"Hasta que la muerte nos separe." "Till death do us part," mijo.
I didn't think I was gonna fall in love with anybody.
With Stacy, she notices if I'm not okay.
She knows when I'm happy.
Um, if something's on my mind and I'm nervous.
We had a little bit of a disagreement, and she just...
She knows me.
I think the biggest thing with my relationships when I meet girls
is when there's a problem that comes up, they always run away.
She's had her meltdowns multiple times.
I've had mine.
What I'm grateful for is...
we always fix it.
-So, has she cooked for you? [laughing] -She did, yeah. I haven't cooked for her.
[Reyna] Oh, you haven't? Wow.
She's been on my ass about it. I have to cook her dinner.
Um, so, I've been making it a thing.
Every Monday I always buy her flowers.
-[Reyna] Oh. That's good. -So I got her those last Monday.
I got her these this Monday.
Well, tell me about her.
-So, Stacy is loud. -[laughing] Really? Oh!
-[Izzy] Sassy. -Oh, wow.
Um, you'll know when she walks into the room.
There's never a dull moment. She's special. And she's not easy though.
She's not easy at all.
She's tough to deal with, but she's worth it.
She's tender and sweet.
And fragile.
And...
something about her just makes me want more every day.
[Reyna] I know that
you know what you want in life.
I just wanna make sure that this decision that y'all are making
that y'all are for sure.
This is you getting united with someone for the rest of your life.
[Izzy] Mmm-hmm.
And for a guy, it's, you know, becoming the head of a household and all that,
and you know that you will always have my support, no matter what.
-[Izzy laughs] Hello. -[Stacy] Hello.
Hi, Tux! Oh, my God, those aren't for you.
Those are not for you.
-[Izzy] Oh? -I brought y'all some flowers.
-Look at you. -[Stacy] It's nice to meet you. Sorry.
-Tux is a hot mess. -[Reyna] Oh, my God!
-[Stacy laughing] -You're so cute.
-[Stacy] Thank you! So are you! -Let me see you. Look at you.
Are you ready to catch up? Say all the things?
Tux, stop. He wants to be a part of everything.
-Oh, yes. I already got to meet him. -I'm so sorry.
Sweetheart, he's been all over us.
[Stacy] Are you the official greeter? Oh, my God.
-[Izzy] You wanna come sit over here? -[Stacy] Hey, did you...
-Did you see this? [laughing] -Yes, yes.
-I love it. I love it. -First family photo.
I'm like, we got so lucky on this to have most of us looking at the camera.
-[laughing] -[Izzy] I know.
[Stacy] Anyhoo.
[sighs] What did I miss?
It was her first time seeing me since I've gotten engaged.
-Oh, my God. -I know. [laughs]
Did you get overwhelmed?
[Reyna sighs] I got so many emotions, sweetheart.
-[Stacy] Yeah. -[Reyna] Very, um...
You know...
I'm still in shock.
-I get that. -This is just... [sighs]
[Reyna] This is such a very short amount of time.
[Stacy] I understand the way of marriage isn't like a...
"This is fun! Let's do it."
In my personal opinion, sweetheart, this is not a game.
I don't wanna sound like an overprotective mother or anything like that,
but deep inside, I'm thinking,
"Is this really, you know, the person for my son?"
It's important for me to know that whoever he's gonna end up being with
is someone that will be there for him.
You know? Someone that will be supportive, that will understand him.
Honestly,
it would be really hard for me to say like,
"I am the woman for him" and sell you on it.
But I want you to know, like,
how I feel about him is definitely genuine.
I know that I'm in love with him, and I know that he has feelings for me
that are very real, and it caught me totally off guard.
He, uh,
brought out this emotional,
vulnerable side of me that allowed me to connect.
Like, deep connection.
It's a bond that I cannot describe.
Oh, man, Stacy. [sighs]
I...
Wow.
It's crazy how she says, "You can't explain it."
[pensive music playing]
[Izzy] Oh, God.
'Cause I'm not easy, you know.
And she loves me for it.
Like, she loves me unconditionally.
She loves me when I'm her rock, and she loves me when I'm a mess.
All I ever want to do is just give her my best
day in and day out.
Stacy makes me wanna be a better man.
When I say it's real, like, it's real.
It's put me in a position where I'm willing to take a risk,
and I'm willing to be vulnerable
because he was doing it.
Being vulnerable isn't necessarily
knowing that there's someone there to catch you.
And with him, I happily jumped off a cliff,
not knowing if I had a parachute, 'cause it was worth it.
And I've never done that.
[both laughing softly]
[crying] Yeah, I've never done that.
And you trusted him?
Yeah.
Thank you for telling me that.
And I just want you to know, yes,
he's my baby. He's this. He's that.
But I also think of you.
Because this is you two together.
[crying] I don't want you to get hurt. I don't want him to get hurt.
[Stacy] Mmm-hmm.
All I want is just for y'all to be happy.
-And I know that it's not gonna be easy. -[Stacy] Yeah.
[Reyna] I wanna make sure that my son does his part.
-[Stacy] Mmm-hmm. -You know, and takes care of you.
Because, you know, it's just... a family.
Yeah. Thank you so much for saying that.
Of course, because you're gonna be my son's wife...
[Stacy] Mmm.
-Whoo! -[Reyna] How can I... How can I...
-[both laughing] -I know. It's wild.
So...
this is real?
-Mmm-hmm. Yeah. -Y'all are in it?
I love this girl. No doubt about it.
I know that y'all will do good.
[Stacy laughs] Thank you.
-Gimme a hug. [laughing] -[Stacy] Hug your mom!
-[Izzy] I love you. -[Reyna laughing]
[Stacy laughs] Oh, my God!
Stacy is very sincere. She's very, uh, open,
and I can see that she has feelings for my son.
He's really in love with her.
I'm very proud of him.
I want the best for my baby boy,
and I think she will be the one that will love him no matter what.
You know? And be there with him
in good and bad times.
To... love.
It's a beautiful thing when it's right. Cheers. Cheers.
And cheers to probably getting a new couch.
[uplifting music playing]
[Milton] I hate bringing people around my parents.
Uh, honestly. Even friends.
My parents were, like, super, like, strict, like, growing up.
It's either sink or swim in the household.
-What? -[chuckles]
["Another Love Song" by Nicolas Dagnall & Matthew Clark playing]
♪ Gimme your love in the sunshine ♪
♪ And I'll give you The rest of me, yeah! ♪
Hi!
Hello.
-[Lydia] Hi, how are you? -[Jessica] Nice to meet you.
[Lydia laughs] I am a hugger.
-Hey, bro! -Hey, Jess.
-[Milton] What's up? -Hey.
[woman] Hi, sweetie.
-[Milton] Hey, Mom. -[woman] Hi. Oh.
[kisses]
-[exclaims] -[Milton] This is Lydia.
-[Lydia] Nice to meet you. -Hi, Lydia!
-[Lydia] You're gorgeous. -So are you.
-So nice to meet you. Finally. -[Rita] It's nice meeting you as well.
I hear an accent.
-[Lydia] Oh, yes. I am Puerto Rican. -Okay.
Born and raised.
-Hi! Nice to meet you. -This is my husband, James.
-[James] How you doing? -Nice to meet you.
-[James] I'm gonna hug you. -I'm a hugger, too, so don't mind that.
Okay. Maybe we should just sit down for a little bit.
-[Lydia] He already sat on the counter. -[Jessica] You want a drink?
I've tried to, "There's plenty of chairs," but he loves the counter.
[Rita] He does. Well, he's tall and...
[Milton] I prefer to sit on the counters.
[Rita] As you can see where he gets his height from.
-[Lydia] Oh, my God, who is this princess? -[Jessica] This is Colby.
-[Milton] 'Sup, Langston? -[Jessica] That's my husband, Langston.
-[Lydia] Hi. -'Sup, dawg?
[Lydia laughs]
Hi, nice to meet you.
Are you familiar with, um...
Do you call him Milton or you call him James?
[Lydia] I call him Milton because he introduced himself as Milton.
[Rita] Yeah. All throughout school, people referred to him as Milton,
but my husband is James. He's James.
Little James is getting married.
[Rita] We call him Little James because Big James, Little James.
So, where are you from exactly?
[Lydia] So, I am from Mayaguez, Puerto Rico.
Had my bachelor's degree over there.
I did my undergrad in geology
with master's degree in environmental management as well.
After that I started my career as a geologist back in 2019.
Well, good for you. I'm always eager to see women in the STEM community.
-[Lyda] Yes, thank you. I appreciate that. -And that's what you are, so.
-What's your last name again? -Velez Gonzales.
Velez Gonzales, okay.
She will Google, FBI-check you in a heartbeat.
Go for it.
And she will know your credit score before you leave this house.
-Like, she's... -[Lydia laughing]
It's what I do.
-[Milton] Can we eat first? -You can eat. There's plates.
I'm just like, can we just eat?
I just wanna... I wanna get the important questions.
What made y'all decide this is what y'all wanted to do?
For me...
For me, particularly for me,
I have had unsuccessful dating experiences.
-[James] Mmm-hmm. -I don't see them as failed relationship.
I see them as lessons to be learned and applied to my real relationship.
I guess this is it.
Um, he's definitely everything I've asked for in a guy and a little bit more.
-And he has given his... -[Jessica] You ever dated anyone his age?
-What? -Have you ever dated...
No, I've never dated someone who's younger than me.
[Rita] I was gonna ask that.
Like, just curious on what someone 30
would be interested in a 24-year-old?
Where I was when I was 24, where I had the right mindset,
do I really think I was mature enough for a marriage? Probably not.
But I've dated guys who were 38, 34,
and they haven't been able to express their wants and needs in a mature way,
and your son did just that.
I love him how he is.
For his soul, for his personality,
for his characteristics, for his imperfections.
His imperfections are perfect for me, and that's all that matters.
What don't you like about Milton?
What do I do not like about him?
-[Rita] Mmm-hmm. -[Jessica] Should be a laundry list.
This morning, he was like... he leaves everything everywhere.
-And it's like, there's a place... -What'd I leave everywhere?
So, you're living together now?
Yes. You didn't tell them that?
-[Rita] No. -[Milton] I might not have.
[Lydia] So, yeah, he finished his food
and left the plate on the freaking couch.
-[Milton] I was also running to work. -[Rita] The couch?
-On the couch. He was probably... -[Milton] I was running late.
-I was running late for work. -[Lydia] You know what he said after?
I'm like, "You left the plate on the couch."
He's like, "I knew you were gonna pick it up."
Really? So, is that a deal-breaker?
[Jessica] Wow, you went straight to "a deal-breaker."
[Rita] How do you feel about that?
I think it's, like, the laziness sometimes. Like, it does bother me.
-But he can learn. He's still young. -[Lydia] Yes!
That's not gonna change. My mom was like, "Oh, he's young. Things are gonna change."
No, that's not gonna change.
In other words, are you ready for that responsibility?
I mean, yeah.
"Yeah." What does that mean?
This is such a major step, you figure you wanna make sure this is the one.
He did say to me a couple times, more than once,
that he felt when he was talking to me, I was his best friend.
-[Milton] Yeah, for sure. -That helps a lot.
[Rita] I tell my husband all the time he's my best friend,
so that's very important.
Do you have any reservations at all of getting married?
No, I'm comfortable with him. He makes me feel comfortable. He...
There's never a boring moment between us.
She has such a mature answer for everything.
[Rita] Yes.
-[Milton] Why so many questions? -[Jessica] What are you doing?
Can you, uh, stop the interrogation, please?
I'm not... It was one question!
-[Milton] It's too many questions. -What are you doing? What are you doing?
Well, I'm engaged.
I'm getting married in, like, two weeks.
-Do you know the date of the wedding? -31st.
-[Jessica] Why? -[Langston] 31st.
-What do you mean, why? -Why are you getting married?
-[Lydia] No, it's May 31st. -[Milton] Super uncomfortable questions.
Chill out, dude. Chill. [chuckles]
[pensive music playing]
-[Jessica] Okay. -[Rita] Yes.
[Lydia] What was his response? Sorry.
-I asked her to chill. -He said he loves you.
Why are you getting married?
I didn't even know you were thinking about marriage.
-I mean... -So this is kind of exciting.
[Langston] Talking to him before, we've been out a couple of times,
and he's definitely mentioned he wants to settle down.
[Milton] I was not, like, actively, like, pursuing, like, a wife.
But, I mean, I was definitely interested.
Well, how did it just... [snaps] ...pop into your noggin?
Say, "Now's the time, today is the day"?
'Cause it's phony.
[tense music playing]
[James] No, it's not.
It's phony.
I just wanna make sure that this is what you guys want.
[tense music continues]
[Rita] Think it'll be okay if I talk to Lydia
about how she feels about this situation?
-Um, yeah. -[Rita] Okay.
Well, let's let us talk to her for a little bit.
[Milton] All right.
[sighs]
[Rita] I always say marriage is like a business.
As with any business deal, you should look and see
what are the pros and cons, any obstacles.
I mean, that's just like doing a SWOT analysis.
So, just looking at her résumé, she's definitely qualified to be his wife.
However, sometimes, when you look at a résumé,
and then a person actually shows up, and they start performing,
that's when you see whether or not they're truly qualified.
-So... you wanna do this? -[Lydia laughs nervously]
Yes, I wanna do this.
The other day, I was talking to him. I was like, "You're not my first love,
but you are definitely a lot of firsts."
First guy to treat me so damn good.
He treats me like a queen,
and I've never had that.
I never had someone who hugs me, and holds me tight,
and says, "I never wanna let you go."
He texts me when he's doing an overnight shift,
"I love you. I cannot wait to marry you."
And that's the guy that I'm crazy for, you know?
So, I mean, as Jessica said before, some of it seems...
You know, you're scripted. You know a lot of the answers.
[tense music playing]
This what you see right now, this is me. I'm really loving.
I am caring. I am loud.
I am funny.
And I am really comfortable with him.
And I've never had that before.
James talked to us before about pursuing a higher education, getting his PhD.
How would you feel about that?
[Lydia] For me, I think education is really important.
And in terms of him getting his PhD, like, I'm gonna support him.
He has a great career.
-He still has ambition. -[Rita] Mmm-hmm.
[Lydia] Um, I see it in him.
He's a great guy, and he is really smart.
So what are your ambitions?
I wanna get my dream job... [chuckles]
...working as an environmental protection specialist.
What do you wanna know about James? What do you wanna know about his family?
When we start a family, how important or crucial is it
that the firstborn child is named James Milton Johnson V?
-Fourth. -No, the fifth.
-Fifth? The fifth? -James is the fourth. You forgot.
-Oh, right. You're right. -I was like, "Wait, what?" That confused...
'Cause I've been giving him a hard time when he forgets some of that stuff.
You're right. It would be the fifth.
-As a mom, we watch our children. -[Lydia] Mmm-hmm.
And we watch them evolve.
And I used to always tell him,
"You're too tall to be leaning on me all the time."
"You're gonna be someone's husband, someone's father, one day."
"I need you to get to that point and start accepting," you know.
And, you know, it's not like, "Don't be the baby all the time."
And so, I do see him starting to have...
You know, even the way he responds back to me and stuff like that.
Even the way he sits, you know.
He sits up straight now and crosses his leg and you know.
So, those are things that maybe some other family members don't see,
but I see it as a mother.
-[laughs] Jessica didn't like... -Yeah, but she's, you know, sister.
[pensive music playing]
Jessica, what is your biggest concern in terms of our relationship?
I don't know. Marriage is so big.
It is big.
Marriage is for life.
I've been through so much shit in life.
I know what I can handle, what I cannot.
And a year ago, I could have told you, like, probably I was not ready for this.
What makes you ready now?
I think that I am emotionally able and matured.
Like, I'm 30.
-[chuckles] I'm not here to fool around. -[Rita] Yeah, to play games.
Play around, date around. It is exhausting.
You get to a point where you're like, "I'm just gonna work on myself."
And then this... this happened, you know.
And I think it was great 'cause it worked perfectly.
Like, I worked on myself,
and this is my reward.
[conflicted music playing]
I just don't know. I don't hear it in him.
I don't know. I don't know if I see it just yet.
I know James. I know James when he's excited.
I know when he's happy. I know when he's sad.
♪ I heard you whisper ♪
♪ You'll never make it through... ♪
I'm still waiting for James to give me that surety.
I don't know.
♪ Little did you know ♪
♪ That your doubt is my fuel ♪
♪ I'm a bullet train ♪
♪ A tidal wave ♪
♪ No, you can't slow me down ♪