["Love And War" by FJØRA Feat. Quinby Night playing]
♪ All is fair in love and war ♪
-[Zay] Rae. -I don't want to talk to you.
[Zay] Rae.
[Rae] No, because when I fucking hit you, you're gonna get mad.
Get off me, Zay. Get off!
I don't think a lot of people would accept
someone staying out all night and coming home drunk,
smelling like the club, smelling like perfume.
And he expects me to just accept that and be okay.
I was so pissed when he came home, I literally punched him.
♪ All is fair in love and war ♪
I'm sorry I hit you earlier.
Regardless of what you were or weren't doing,
I just can't deal with someone being out all night,
and not answering their phone and not coming in until, like,
8:15 in the morning. I called you, like, four times.
I texted you twice and you just didn't answer.
Um…
I don't have to lie to you, you know?
And your location wasn't working and you weren't texting back.
If you were hanging out with your friends, I don't see why it'd be off.
And why you wouldn't be responding to me.
I've been trying this hard. You think I wanted to go out and fucking…
cheat or something?
-You think--? -Yeah.
I'm so sketched out.
I don't want you to touch me 'cause I'm worried about where you were.
[Zay sighs]
I don't-- Listen. I don't have to lie, nor do I have to--
Then let's say you were saving puppies from a burning building all night.
Let's say that.
You still didn't text me back all night or come home.
I wanna apologize for…
last night. I think that…
that was hard for me to hear and I just really wanted to just…
escape in any type of way that I could, you know? Um…
But…
I mean, that's not an excuse. Like, I just want you to trust me.
I've really been trying.
I know you don't think I was trying, but I was.
-Look at me. -No.
I mean, you sat here and you haven't looked me in my eyes once.
You haven't-- You know, like-- Come on now. Like--
You have to understand that I've been really trying. I've been trying.
Sometimes I just do wanna get fucked up and forget about everything.
[Rae] This is ridiculous.
What can I do? 'Cause I really-- I mean, I--
I mean, fucking stay home and answer your phone. It's not--
-I don't understand-- -Rae.
What?
This is not who we are. I was so upset, I literally swung on you.
And punched you. That's not who we are. That's not what we do.
I feel like it was dumb to say you were ready for an engagement,
then stay out all night and not come home. That shows me you're not ready.
I don't wanna do this.
[Rae sniffles]
Sorry, baby.
[Rae] I was trying to leave here with you.
[Rae sniffles]
I just wanna be done. I just wanna go home.
[sniffles]
I'm done.
I don't know what to say, I mean…
Two years. [chuckles]
Two and a half years come to…
[Rae sniffles]
It's fucking crazy how eight weeks can change your whole fucking life, right?
[chuckles]
[Rae] Yeah.
["No Turning Back" by WOODS playing]
Um…
Like, I love you. I really-- I really do.
I mean, I still wanna be with you.
I really wanna be with you.
And if you love me like you say you do, then this shouldn't be over.
♪ This world is all I have ♪
So there's nothing I can do?
I mean…
[Zay exhales]
♪ Don't need a savior ♪
♪ Just need some time to pass ♪
♪ Run, run, run Run, run, run ♪
-Can you please stay? -No.
[Zay sighs]
♪ Run, run, run Run, run, run ♪
♪ Run! ♪
♪ Run past the wreckage… ♪
I mean…
Can you talk to me?
I know you're mad. Can you please talk to me real quick, please?
[sighs] All right.
[elevator dings]
I love you.
♪ There's no turning back ♪
I know I was wrong being out all night, but if you love-- if you love--
If you care about someone the way that, you know, she says she does,
you don't give up on something like that that fast, that quick.
It hurts more to just see her--
How fast she just let everything go and just let us go.
♪ Don't turn your back ♪
["On Your Love" by Skye Emanuel playing]
♪ I'm faded on your love ♪
♪ Spinning round the world untamed ♪
♪ When I'm with you, my love We lose control and it's okay ♪
-[mom] Happy birthday. -[April] Thanks, Mom!
Happy belated birthday.
-Can I give y'all a hug? -[mom] Yes.
Hi, Dad. Hi, Mom.
I'm the nicest, most amazing girlfriend Jake's ever taken home.
Just kidding.
But, honestly, I love his family like they're mine.
Y'all are crazy.
-Let me say that. -[April] Oh, believe us.
This has been crazy.
Tell me about your experience.
-With Colby? Right? -Yeah.
The most amazing three weeks of my experience is probably with Colby.
I'm a good trial wife! [chuckles]
There was a few things you said to me about him on traits that he had.
Yeah.
That this one doesn't have.
And I think, Jake, you did the same thing with me with Rae.
Yeah. These last three weeks, we were with Rae and Colby.
Um…
It may have seemed like the greatest thing in the world and all that stuff.
But just getting back into it, we're trying to--
We're struggling a little bit. We are.
But then again, I don't think we both, either one of us, regret it at all.
Because we did find out a lot of stuff that we needed for ourselves.
We're kinda like…
smooth sailing and, like, listening to each other finally.
My confusion was that when Jake, when I asked to get married
and I gave the ultimatum, was like, "I want to be financially stable."
It's not that I wanna be, like, financially secure.
But if something happens, I want that nest egg to fall back on.
You're never gonna be financially secure.
That's called life, Jake.
Stop fiddling.
And not that he-- Yeah, stop fiddling.
Jake is an amazing person.
And I do love him and I think that
you have been very good for him in a lot of ways.
Um, one thing I did see about Rae is she's very soft.
[April] I don't wanna talk about Rae. I just--
-[mom] Yeah. Okay. -Don't wanna talk about her.
You are our Filipino firecracker. I love that you know what you want.
I love you. I love you.
[April] Aw!
And, of course, I adore my son.
I just want both of y'all to be happy.
[April] I love you and I've had the most amazing time of my life with you.
This experience already…
made everything clear to me that
I've finally learned who Jake is and what Jake wants to explore.
And how much I do love this person, respect him,
and wanna spend the rest of my life with him.
[mom] Then you don't have any reserve on taking that by storm.
-Yeah. -And making that happen.
If y'all do decide to move forward after this,
sit down, make a-- make a bucket list or--
You know, not of-- not of travels, but, uh, things that you actually need
that you've realized that you need from this experience.
Y'all have a lot to talk about. But know that…
that I love you both very much, okay?
-I love you. -[Jake] Thanks, Mama.
[dad] What's that saying?
Watch what you wish for, it might come true. [chuckles]
[all chuckle]
["Trying Not To Fall" by Jonathan Brook playing]
♪ Now I'm trying not to fall in love ♪
♪ Can we talk about it? ♪
[Shanique] A lot has changed in the last 48 hours.
Zay is now single and, um,
he has obviously been in a very vulnerable, emotional place.
Now, the door is a little bit more open in terms of, um…
[chuckles] …maybe what Zay's intentions are for the rest of this experience, so…
Yeah, I have that in the back of my mind.
[Zay] Tequila time!
You ready?
I am super-- I'm super excited to taste it.
-You ready? -I like it.
[Zay] Cheers.
[Shanique coughs]
[chuckles]
-[Shanique] This is a bad idea. -[both chuckle]
You said you missed me.
[Shanique chuckles]
[Zay] Hey, stop touching me with them things!
[Shanique chuckles]
Why are you touching me with them?
-You're very comfortable with my feet. -No!
[chuckles]
Shanique, shut the fuck up. [chuckles]
Hey, to all the good times.
Fantastic times.
Cheers.
Um, me and Rae are single.
And I think that's something I had to catch on with Rae and just--
I feel like I had to just change everything about me to be right for her.
Before we broke up, I said I was ready for an engagement.
Then she's like, "Well, I don't feel well."
"You know, I don't really feel good. I don't feel like talking."
I just never got an answer.
Rae made that decision that she wasn't ready.
Yeah, I wanted to go out and say, "Fuck everything."
Like, "Fuck it. I'm getting drunk. I'm getting fucked up." You know?
I'm not saying she's the reason--
That she's the reason why I went out and stayed out all night, but, um…
That-- that is the reason.
How am I supposed to feel in that moment?
How do you feel when you're alone…
but somebody that's supposed to love you and supposed to care about you
is in another room, not saying anything to you?
I feel like I've been very respectful of your position and your opinion,
and your thoughts in this whole situation.
If I was to tell you my personal opinion,
I think that there's no fucking way that Randall could go
from 12 a.m. until 8 a.m. and not text me or tell me where he--
I don't give a fuck what we're going through.
I'm telling you that for real.
There's no way. So I'm being respectful.
You're not in my position.
And you know what? I'm not.
But as a woman, I would never be okay with that.
Obviously, you're a woman. You're raised a woman.
And I think y'all are just automatically gonna be--
No.
-I think so. Um, I think so. -No.
Because the way that you're talking to me is like,
"Well, you left." Like, that is what matters.
It's not about you leaving. It's that you were gone until 8 a.m, Zay.
What the fuck were you doing until 8 a.m.?
I'm not perfect. No one's perfect.
I came from a fucked up situation.
I did. I grew up in a fucked up way.
I wasn't raised with people that's telling me to do the right shit.
So I know I need shit I need to work on.
For the first time in my life, I'm saying like,
"Damn. Rae did this."
I feel some type of way about that.
It hurts.
Obviously, you talk about your past a lot, and I think that is commendable.
You're so much better than everything you've been through.
And sometimes I feel like
you will lean on those things as a way for you to, um,
have a pass for why you have done or said or felt a certain way,
when I do feel like you're at a place in your life where you--
You are so much better than that. You know better.
[scoffs] Like, come on now. "You know better"? I--
I never use my past as-- as an excuse or--
I'm just telling you why I think the way I think.
I met a hundred people
that-- that fucked me over and that I couldn't trust.
And I meet two people in my life that I can trust.
-I'm supposed to forget the other hundred? -No.
You told me, "Rae left me like everyone else in my life has left me."
What it sounded like to me was you were blaming someone else
for having a reaction to an action.
-So when I say you're using your past… -Mm-hmm.
…as a reason to act or react the way that you do,
it's because I've seen you make the connections
to things that just really are-- are two separate situations.
Everyone is patient with you because you've been through things in life.
I feel like we should be just as fair and patient with Rae.
We don't know what the fuck she-- I don't know what she's been through.
I don't know why she's having a hard time opening up and saying what she's feeling.
And I feel like no one is giving her the same space or--
Just the same respect to figure that out.
That's just my opinion from what I've seen. Wait. I'm not done.
You're about to say something. Don't-- No. I'm not done.
I don't wanna cut you-- Listen. No.
I'm not gonna explain anything.
-Don't cut me off. I'm not done. -Just listen. Listen.
-I'm not-- -I won't say a whole sentence.
I'm just letting you know. I don't want to--
Zay, I'm not done.
All right. Then go ahead. Keep on fucking going.
[chuckles]
I'm saying if someone does not have that ability,
just like how we're patient enough to understand
people's traumas and how they affect…
them today and the fact--
Why did you say it like that?
Zay.
I'm done with this conversation.
That was…
Like, what? Why would you say it like that?
This is why you guys get into arguments the way you do.
How about you come back and explain to me what I said wrong, Zay?
You don't wanna contribute to the conversation
because all you wanna do is walk off.
Just have a fucking conversation.
[Zay] No! Fuck that!
You know what the fuck you were saying before you said it.
Let me talk about your fucking childhood and just belittle that shit.
-I'm not-- -The fuck you talking about?
Every time someone says something you don't like, that's what you do.
["Find The Answer" by SHIPS, Georgia Mason & Robert Lamont playing]
♪ Can you really hurt somebody? ♪
♪ I've been digging deep And tryna find me it's just you ♪
I know that you called me and you expressed everything.
I don't know Colby as well as I would like.
When we first met him, he was just so--
-Sat beside me. -Yeah.
Talked with me the whole time.
Ordered the same meal I ordered.
-Oh, God. -Everything I said was great.
I mean, he was truly-- The whole weekend was like-- Worshiped me.
And then the next couple of times he came,
he barely spoke to Tom and I.
-It was almost-- It was rude, actually. -Yeah. Yeah.
[dramatic music playing]
Colby is a lot of bullshit up front. [chuckles]
It's hard to have my friends who are close to me be like,
"No, you shouldn't be with him."
For you who knows me better than anybody,
and for you to express concern or, like, not be sure,
that makes me hesitant. Like, I needed--
I wouldn't be able to marry him without…
If you expressed, like, severe concern.
I see the best in everyone,
and I give them the benefit of the doubt.
And he hasn't done anything in front of me…
Yeah.
…that makes me say, "Absolutely not."
You know? I-- Like, "This is a terrible idea."
He always seems so good to you.
I've seen-- I've seen good things in him. I see that he loves you.
And I've seen him
incredibly giving and kind and helpful.
But I have my… I have my own…
shadows in my mind that just always--
I think you passed those down, because I definitely--
Well, you lived through them with me, so…
I have such, like, a desire and a need-- I mean, it's truly a need at this point.
I don't know if it's healthy or not, but to feel, like, loved and wanted.
That is the one thing that if I'm not getting,
that I will do whatever it takes to get.
Me and Randall were like-- We really did have a connection.
Randall was like, "I could see myself with Madlyn."
Like, I could see a future with her. We-- You know?
He does think we'd be a really good couple. And I was like--
I mean, I agree. Randall's perfect.
But then, like--
There was something missing.
And the problem that Randall has in his relationship he came here with
is lack of passion and effort. Like, putting all of himself into it.
I know that's something Colby offers me that I've never had before.
Colby is like, "I want to build a life with a person
and make them, you know, my partner, and experience--"
Like, that's his priority.
And I wanna be the priority. I know I will be with Colby.
The past that has been your biggest struggle…
Yeah.
…is not feeling like the other person was there for you.
Yeah.
[mom] Is there anything else? Or is that the biggest thing?
His listening, as far as conversation goes,
when Colby tries to have a deep conversation,
I don't know what he's talking about.
Sometimes he loses me along the way. That's hard for me.
To me, it's like, yeah, he might lack a lot of things.
But because he is so passionate,
I believe he will commit to work on those other things.
He excites me.
Because I don't want to be bored. I don't want to be bored.
I'll never be bored. I might be annoyed and exhausted sometimes,
but I'll never be bored with Colby.
And I know you're like, "The passions of that can go away too."
I know. I know you. [chuckles]
Well, it changes. It goes through stages.
I always find something wrong with somebody.
What's wrong with me that I have to do that?
Do you think I'm ready to get married?
[chuckles] Do I think you're ready?
And, like, not just Colby. Like, do you think me as I am?
[gentle piano music playing]
That's hard. I mean, how do I answer that?
It's hard for me to say you're ready because of myself.
-Yeah. -You know, because of my own experiences.
It's like I wanna protect you.
But, I mean, you're never perfectly ready for anything.
Yeah.
I love marriage,
and I believe in marriage, you know, for life.
And I want you to have that, because it's amazing.
Marriage is amazing.
I know that you're gonna make the right decision.
♪ I thought that I could save you ♪
[inaudible]
♪ But I need saving too ♪
Tonight, I just want Jake to know how, um,
how upset and overwhelmed I'm feeling.
I think that Jake is amazing.
And I think that he is a great partner.
I'm scared of my connection with Jake.
I'm gonna cry.
[chuckles]
[sobs]
[sniffles]
I feel like you got a lot to say.
You know what? Fuck it.
Um,
-I broke up with him. -Oh shit.
I was like, "I didn't want to leave you. I just felt like I had to."
And he brings you up a lot too. And I'm just like, I--
Okay.
We argued about you a lot, actually.
-He found the golden box in the room. -Oh, shit.
I knew I should've took that. I knew I should've took that box.
You, like, broke up with him?
I moved all my stuff out.
-What are you saying? -So…
I guess I'm single now. I don't fucking know.
Damn.
So, like, I need to know what's going on with you and April.
I need the cheese, man. I need the tea.
I need to know what's going on with you guys.
So we were butting heads to the point where we were like,
-screaming at each other. -Mm-hmm.
But, um, I do definitely need to give April a chance to try to
make things work at the end of this.
And, um…
Thank you.
I'm just trying to put myself in Zay and April's shoes.
We should send them on a date and just see what happens.
That'd be funny.
[both chuckle]
It's just like--
-I don't know. -That'd be funny, though.
Any time we hang out, it's always fun.
How does it make you feel that pretty much the whole group,
aside from Zay and April, the whole group is pretty much like,
"Y'all two need to just be together."
-How does it make you feel? -It does say a lot.
We're so-- Fuck.
-We're weird together, all right? -We're so cute.
Everyone is like, "Now, kiss." Like, the whole fucking group.
Everyone says opposites attract, but…
-In our case, maybe. -Our case, no.
-Similars attract. -Attract.
[dramatic music plays]
I like this, Rachel.
I want someone like you as a partner.
♪ I've got secrets and lies… ♪
[exhales] Woo. Okay. So she's single.
And it was very hard to tell her that, um,
I'm trying to fix things with April and all that stuff,
because I still love April.
But at the same time, I've never met a girl like Rae.
I do have a thing for her. I think we have a thing for each other.
Fuck. It's just a lot to think about.
I'm literally single. I'm like, what the fuck happened?
Like, I broke up with my person.
So I'm sitting here kinda like, what do I do with myself?
What am I doing?
Like, I'm just here. I'm not gonna cry.
I'm not gonna cry.
♪ Maybe I'm bad and I ♪
♪ I'm right on the edge Hanging on by a thread ♪
["A Reason To Be" playing]
It's crazy to think this is the last date before the big day and the big decision.
So do you feel like you were able to, I guess,
try to get the most out of me throughout these past couple of weeks?
Typically, I am a little, like…
Um…
invasive, and you've told me that, like--
-Like, a little annoying or something? -[Shanique chuckles]
Yeah.
You're supposed to laugh when you tell a joke, Randall.
It wasn't a joke.
[both chuckle]
No, but I know I kind of, like,
throw things on you all the time, and I'm like
asking a bunch of questions all the time. So I know that can be a little annoying.
Mm-hmm.
I do feel like I've gotten a lot out of you in terms of, like,
what you really need and the things that, apparently, I've done in the past that…
that pissed you off or really hurt you.
I think that gave me a lot of perspective about what I need to be, um,
better at, which is being a lot more, um, empathetic to you,
being kinder and just more gentle.
Mm-hmm.
Honestly, I think too, just giving you space to-- to speak up.
'Cause I'm asking you to speak up, but I also talk a lot, so… [chuckles]
Yeah. Um, all of that. So…
I have seen that improvement
in the things that I have asked, at least, from-- of you.
I mean, I hope you've seen that from me as well.
I have.
One thing that I want to let you know that I've respected
is you valuing my time just as much as you value yours,
whether that's getting ready on time when we go on these dates or just doing--
Just keeping me in mind when you-- When time is of the essence.
To be real, that was a thing for me. It was, like, a thing.
You never made it that much of a thing.
In my mind, it was.
I thought there was no saving you with that.
[Shanique chuckles]
Yeah, I've seen that improvement throughout these past couple weeks.
And I don't know if you learned that from anybody else,
or you just kinda did some self-reflection and thought about it.
But I can see that improvement.
Are there things that you've seen from me that you kind of didn't expect?
Honestly, the physical stuff with Madlyn.
I was surprised, like, by that.
Because I feel like you're a person who's very, like,
collected, but you were just like,
"No. I think I can do that."
And I was surprised that you did it.
But, yeah, it was uncomfortable for me.
I was like, "Dang. Okay. Well, I guess this is my green light."
To also, like…
[chuckles] Okay.
Think about what that physical connection meant to me,
and what my physical connection with Zay meant to me as well, you know? So…
Um,
I think…
We had an emotional connection.
Obviously there was a physical attraction there, but…
Truthfully, in the beginning, I just thought, "Okay."
"They're gonna get-- Whoever she's living with,
they're gonna get on each other's nerves."
So you're surprised Zay actually liked me?
Yeah. I mean, not liked you.
But, like, not-- Didn't get tired of you, you know?
Well, he didn't get tired of me, I'll say that.
I could tell.
I didn't think Zay and I's relationship bothered you at all.
No, because at that point, Zay and Rae were still together.
Where does he go from now? Does he kinda still try to
get more out of you? Does he--? Is it-- Is it gonna turn more romantic?
'Cause it is a little different now, so…
Being with, um, Zay, I started to think about a lot of things that, like,
I may have messed up at-- On,
and started to regret a lot of decisions, such as even bringing you here.
Obviously, I did have a connection with him at a point.
But to be frank, like, I don't…
think that there's much else that I need from that situation.
Mm-hmm.
What we really, really need in a marriage,
like, we have the ability to give that to each other.
I'm at a point now where I'm like, "Okay." Like, I--
I'm back to that feeling of, like, "I wanna leave with this man."
I think my big question or concern still is like,
do you genuinely feel like you are ready
to make a decision one way or the other?
[heart beats]
You never, in your mind,
know 100% if you're "ready," if that makes sense.
What if we don't work out? What if we don't learn from this?
Things aren't gonna be perfect when we get engaged, if we do get engaged.
This is…
like, a big decision that I need to make.
And I can't be influenced by anybody else.
Because at the end of the day, it's still my life.
I am not…
Truthfully, not thinking about other people's feelings
by making my decision.
I'm not trying to make anybody happy. I'm not trying to make anybody sad.
I'm just doing what's best for me.
Well, that's honest. Um-- [clears throat]
You wouldn't want me to
get down on one knee if I didn't really mean it, right?
[dramatic music playing]
It's, like, insulting. [scoffs] It's to a point where it's insulting.
Crazy.
The person who gave the ultimatum…
Like, in Rae and Zay's case,
she gave the ultimatum, but she ultimately changed her mind.
And she's at a different place right now.
Mmm.
I think that's also a possibility too for everyone here.
Regardless of what side of the ultimatum you're on.
Just because the person who you gave the ultimatum to makes the decision,
doesn't mean that has to be your decision too. So, I'm…
thinking we have a lot to think about.
Yeah.
♪ Back and forth I go Back and forth I go ♪
♪ Back and forth I go ♪
♪ It's up to me to draw the line ♪
♪ In the force of my mind ♪
-God, you look so good tonight. -Thanks.
You look so amazing.
You do too.
-Stunning. -[chuckles]
It's actually a beautiful night.
It is our last night together. It's our last dinner and…
I'm excited. I really want it to be special.
I really do feel like we've come so far.
We have, you know, unbottled more in three weeks
than we have in over a year together.
So I am ready to marry Colby.
I can't wait to tell him that.
You have made me feel, like, such moments of hope and joy over the past couple days.
But I've also realized things about myself, like--
You, like, trigger my emotions. You pull that out of me, like--
Highs and lows. Like, good and bad emotions.
I talked to my mom. I talked to my friends. I talked to you.
I mean, I feel better about us than I ever have.
I do.
I feel incredibly optimistic right now.
We are a good team.
We've proven ourselves.
We really have.
Um…
-Do you feel like you have any regrets--? -Nope.
-None? -Not a one.
[chuckles]
Anything that you…
would have done differently?
Like, a regret? [chuckles]
Um…
I think the biggest regret I had on this experience was probably going
to make this real for you, and…
[whispers] To make it real for me.
I wish I had done it differently.
I just hate that you continue to say, like, "Make it real for me."
I didn't need you to, like, hook up with somebody.
That's not what I needed you to show me, that you could have, like,
some sort of intimate physical connection with somebody else.
With us talking about marriage here,
it was the fact that you were gonna be with somebody that's ready to get married,
that is-- Could possibly even make you realize,
"Shit, you know, I could be with any number of women
that can make me happy, that are ready to get married,
that I don't have to chase or fight for."
-It was real for me already. -Yeah.
I didn't need you to do anything else to make it real.
Damn. I wish I would've known that.
I didn't--
It would've been great to know that then. [chuckles]
Why are we going backwards?
Oh my God.
No, let's talk about it.
Okay. Well, then I need you to listen.
Well, I'm listening.
Okay. Don't speak until I'm ready for you to speak, please.
Don't talk to me like that.
Why are you talking like this? You're being very rude.
Don't do that.
I'm saying,
I didn't know that you had continued your conversation with her
until after we had already moved back in together.
Right, but--
-Is that true or not? -That is true.
-So-- So-- -I'll keep listening.
How does that line up?
You didn't even tell me about it. How could it be real?
I told you that night what happened and when it happened.
Oh God. This is really bad.
[dramatic music playing]
It was you trying to make it real for you.
It wasn't about me in that moment.
So do you regret it or not?
Can I speak now?
-Oh fuck. Yeah. -Yeah.
I regret the way I went about making it real. Yeah, absolutely.
Who did you make it real for?
You, obviously.
You truly see it that way?
That you did what you did for me? That was for me?
To make it real for me even though I didn't know about it?
You knew all about it. I told you about it.
I don't know why we keep going back to the same conversation.
Oh my God. This is so fucking crazy. This is literally insane.
This is insane. This is fucking insane.
I cannot pretend I'm the problem anymore.
I can't.
And I can't--
I can't leave here with you.
Look at me.
I can't be with somebody…
who can't admit that they're wrong.
Okay.
You're making me feel stupid.
You shouldn't feel stupid. I'm not trying to make you feel stupid.
The last thing I want is to lose you.
The last thing I want…
is to put what we have in jeopardy.
I believe you. I really--
I believe that that's really how you feel about things, Colby.
Truly-- Look at me in my face. Look at me.
I believe-- Like, I truly believe that that is--
Yeah, that's something you can't live with, and I get it.
It's not. Look at me.
It's not gonna work.
[dramatic music playing]
I can't marry a man that can't accept responsibility for his actions.
I can't be hurt and then apologize for it.
[somber music playing]
I feel like shit for what I did.
But it truly is what she asked, and, um…
♪ Who survived the fight today ♪
♪ Bullets flyin' through the air ♪
♪ Not far closing in carries a weight ♪
I feel stupid for trying so hard for him.
I'm embarrassed that I was willing to do that.
♪ We keep falling Vices calling ♪
[Colby] It sucks to see her walk away from me like that.
It's like I wanna chase after her, but I know she needs her time.
♪ We've been trying Just keep fighting ♪
I don't know what to do.
[Madlyn] So he did it for me. He, um…
He went to another girl's hotel room at four o'clock in the morning.
So that it would be real. So that I would be able to marry him.
That's not what I'm willing to do for the rest of my life.
I…
thought it would be…
my last dinner with Colby as my boyfriend before he became my fiancé.
I mean--
It was stupid, really.
I know he-- he wants to leave with me, but…
I mean, who would I be?
What, like--?
How little respect for myself would I have to have to
accept that and act like there's not an issue?
That's--
I can't marry somebody like that.
I can't have that for the rest of my life. I can't.
♪ These games These deadly games ♪
[gentle music playing]
[Randall] It was kind of weighing heavy on me last night that--
Thinking that everything could change.
-[Shanique] I'm a little anxious. -Yeah.
Today, we are separating. We are saying goodbye.
Uh, tomorrow, the ultimatum comes.
This could be the last time Shanique and I spend time together.
This is the end as we know it.
I don't know why I physically don't feel good, but my head is hurting.
Because you're just thinking about me, right?
Thinking about all the good times we had.
You know? Yeah.
Ugh.
It's certainly been a crazy journey. Um, so I just wanna thank you again for…
for agreeing to go on this with me and, um,
hope the best for-- for the both of us.
I want to let you know that I love you.
And regardless, um,
of the decision that I make,
just know I think it will be in the best interest for us.
And I know you'll respect that.
-I love you. -Mmm.
[Randall sighs softly]
♪ It's just another one of those days ♪
♪ One of those days ♪
I thought we were supposed to walk out of here engaged.
And I'm not even in a relationship anymore.
♪ One of those days ♪
So, um…
I don't know.
I guess it kind of feels like I failed in a way. I don't know.
I don't think I would've done anything differently.
It was my honest reaction to everything, so…
Everything turned out how I guess it was supposed to.
♪ I'm just one of your games ♪
I'm hurting. Um, I talked to Rae and--
I mean, I know she's-- she's hurting as well.
I think just not having that person that's been your best friend,
you know, not having that person by your side,
it makes you think a-- a lot differently.
You think a lot deeper and you think a lot more on, um,
how important that person was.
♪ Just 'cause you're gone ♪
♪ You were already gone ♪
I think I'm feeling more overwhelmed that I'm packing by myself than anything.
Just thinking that me and Rae packed these bags together
coming to this experience, and…
Now I'm by myself.
♪ Our love was always dead So don't try ♪
♪ To beg me for my love ♪
♪ 'Cause I'm better off as one ♪
[song ends]
♪ Well, I was dreaming I was dreaming, love ♪
♪ That we were floating through The city streets ♪
Last night didn't go well, it was our last night together.
And I'm concerned for Colby. I know he's going through a lot.
There's a lot of pressure, but…
I have-- I have to put that aside,
because now is not the time for me to be worried about Colby.
Now, it's-- This part is for me.
♪ Feel the weight of the world Pulling down again ♪
I just wanna sit with myself and ask myself what I need,
and what I'm willing to leave here with or without.
I know I'm gonna make the decision that's best for me.
[Colby] This has never happened before. This is something new to us.
Right now, she's in a state of confusion on what she wants to do.
Um, the last thing I want is to see Madlyn walk away.
The last thing I want is to see Madlyn upset,
confused the way she is.
I've caused this.
♪ Feel the weight of the world Pulling down again ♪
I don't feel like I'm gonna get this chance again.
I don't feel like I'm gonna find another person like Madlyn.
I don't feel like I'll find these feelings I have for her in somebody else.
Just kind of scary to think about. [chuckles nervously]
But, um…
I have no control over that.
♪ Falling ♪
♪ Feel the weight of the world Pulling down again ♪
[Jake] Moving out?
It's been nice being back at home and…
[exhales] …taking care of my baby.
I guess I thought you'd be happy about this.
It's not in there. I threw it out, but…
I thought you'd be happier than I am to say I'm on my period, so…
Why would you say that? That's just messed up.
That's not messed up.
That you are on your period?
-Yeah. -[zipper zips]
Like, what--? How's that--?
What do you mean?
My cycle was just off because of the stress.
And you know me, when I get hormonal, I don't have a cycle.
And you scared me 'cause you were like, "Take a test! You're 12 days late!"
You know.
-Heartbreak. -Don't say that.
It is what it is.
-[zipper zips] -Anyways…
I just wanted to remind you that…
I don't like that we've been arguing.
I don't like that we haven't seen eye to eye.
I know that that's not us, and it has been uncomfortable.
I did come in here thinking
I didn't want anyone else.
I didn't wanna have a connection with anybody else.
I didn't want any of that, you know what I mean?
And I am at a good place right now.
I gave this ultimatum so confidently that…
Jake would see everything April brings, and would be in love with me
and want to commit to me at the end of this.
It actually brought things to light that--
-That needed to be-- to be said. -Brought to light.
I really wanted you to…
miss me,
-and be in this experience with me. -I have missed you. I have missed you.
[sad piano music playing]
We both have been in the wrong in different ways, you know what I mean?
Nobody's perfect.
-I do love you. -[April sniffles]
I'll see you tomorrow.
♪ All the people I see… ♪
[door closes shut]
♪ Are strangers to me ♪
♪ People they see ♪
I came into this whole situation with my partner April wanting to marry me.
I do still love her and care about her.
April knows what she wants.
April knows when she fucking wants it.
Jake doesn't know where his head's at.
Me and Rae have had a great time. She is single. Um, that is an option.
Jake doesn't know what he wants and
it's time for him to figure it out.
[melancholy music playing]
♪ All I need ♪
[dramatic music playing]
We are just outside of Austin to witness The Ultimatum coming to an end
and some new journeys about to begin.
[Nick] Two months ago, our couples agreed to an ultimatum.
And committed to not one, but two trial marriages.
And all to find out,
"Am I with the person I could spend my life with?"
"Or is there maybe someone else who's a better fit?"
Who has found their person?
Who will propose?
[Nick] Or split forever?
-Mmm! The suspense is killing me! -[Nick chuckles]
Let's see what happens.
[Shanique] I haven't talked to Randall.
I just-- I just don't know what to expect.
Eight weeks of our lives have been dedicated to our relationships,
and working toward the decision that's gonna happen today.
I know it's been a long journey throughout this experience.
A lot of ups and downs.
A lot of arguments, laughs, tears.
And I felt like the pressure is on me to get down on one knee and do it.
[Shanique] There were definitely
moments in this experience where I've had my doubts
about whether or not Randall and I needed to be engaged at the end of this,
or if we had more things that we had to figure out.
I thought that I was losing him.
I thought that Randall was really, like, forming, um,
a romantic relationship with Madlyn,
and that I felt like I made the biggest mistake in my relationship.
[Randall] Throughout this experience, I've learned to…
sort of communicate my thoughts better,
talk about the things that I need and want in a relationship.
-I think it was all worth it. -[Shanique] I really do love Randall.
But, ultimately, if his decision is not to propose to me today…
Um, just thinking about the future and kind of
stepping into that next stage of life,
whatever that may be, after this experience.
Um, when I think about that, honestly, I am excited because I feel like…
if I couldn't go through this experience and…
As hard as it was, I made it through.
I have one more day, and I'm proud of that.
So, like, if I can go through this,
I can make it through pretty much anything.
Um, I'm hopeful, but I-- Yeah, I'm just here. I'm just here.
So, we'll see. [chuckles]
[Randall] I think I'm more confident than nervous.
And just going through all these weeks,
I've gotten a lot more clarity and a lot more confidence.
And I've got a lot of questions that I needed answered.
Um, and it's made my decision so much easier.
["It's All Happening Now" by Portals playing]
♪ It's all happening now ♪
♪ We've waited for this time to come ♪
♪ And it's all happening now ♪
♪ Yeah, it's all happening now ♪
[Randall] During this experience,
I've learned so much about the positive things in our relationship.
I think we see eye to eye a lot
when it comes down to the logistics of marriage.
She is somebody who I can see
being an amazing mother to my future kids.
But it also allowed me to reflect on our struggles.
I've seen Shanique act very childish,
running from your problems and being a little bit malicious or petty.
What the fuck do you want me to do? Just sit in a corner--?
Just sit in a fucking corner and miss me.
Shanique. That's-- I mean-- I'm gonna need you to grow up about this.
That was the dumbest thing I've heard tonight.
That's not something that I planned out in my future.
[Shanique] I gave Randall an ultimatum.
Whatever happens today is going to change our lives forever one way or another.
During this process,
I've learned that Randall and I's personalities balance one another out.
I'm typically the one who's more fiery.
And he is always the calm one.
-Don't cry. -Mmm.
Come here. Give me a hug.
[Shanique] That's something I'm looking for in a husband.
However, Randall is not a very expressive or affectionate person.
I don't know what he wants.
And he still doesn't know. He's figuring it out.
It's honestly a non-negotiable at this point
that Randall speak up about how he's feeling
for us to move forward in marriage.
I need that.
Extremely nervous.
I think my brain is just all jumping right now.
[Randall] I'm sweating. My heart is beating fast.
My mind is racing.
[Shanique] I want a ring on this finger, or he's gonna have to let me go.
["Here We Come" by Nocturn & Lexxi Saal plays]
♪ Here we come Here we come ♪
[music abruptly stops]
[dramatic music playing]
♪ Are you ready for, ready for… ♪
[Colby] This could either be the best day of my life,
or I could end up heartbroken.
I do love Colby and I thought I would've really wanted to marry him.
But, our issues might be too big.
♪ Walkin' on the water ♪
It's been tough, and it's been difficult and challenging.
♪ Darkness under my feet ♪
[April] I did issue an ultimatum.
Marry me or I'm moving the hell on.
Me and Rae are not running off together. We're not doing that.
[Rae] I know I broke up with Zay, but…
I just want my happy ending.
Hey.
[dramatic music plays]
This is the biggest decision of my life.
[Colby] All I'm thinking about is just getting on one knee
in front of Madlyn and asking her to take my hand in marriage.
-You all right? -[Madlyn chuckles] No.
[Madlyn] This is committing to either forever with Colby or without him.
You know, my heart's telling me one thing,
and my brain is very loudly telling me another.
Oh my God. [sniffles]
[Colby] Will you marry me?
[intense music playing]
[music fades out]
[theme music playing]
[music fades out]